If and only if, I had the intelligence. If and only if...

I think I have been carried away again. apologise. I seriously have to drop this bad habit, thinking too much has never brought me any benefits at all.

Tomorrow go gym, thursday go swimming. yeap, pharmacy ball is coming up, have to buy dress! Though joining the ball really costs quite a lot for me, but saying that this is ma first prom. sigh. It'd be a feast to eyes to see everyone dolls up for the event. so I am just finding excuses to say it's okay to spend so much since it's my first time.

this week I'm going to birmingham to watch the finale of All England and ticket to Bath has already been booked. I have so many things to do yet I rather spend my time facing this stupid laptop. also, I am totally failed when it comes to multi-tasking. never good at it. Others can do two things at the same time. Me? I end up doing nothing and how the hell did I just waste hours only checking out youtube music videos and facebook. I absolutely have no idea at all.

p/s: attach with a song that is so unrelated to the post.

追梦的过程，跌倒，彷徨，振作，一定要吃过很多苦头才能踏出追梦的第一步。

有些人还在为梦想打拚；有些人还在幻想，迟迟不敢踏出第一步，口头说说，成天只会埋怨；有些人已经实现梦想。

为梦牺牲、舍弃、努力、奋斗，失败时跌得很难看，狼狈，世界仿佛只剩下自己，可是，身边总有几个贵人会默默的支持；成功时，很多人来拥护，分享你的喜悦。成功仿佛又是个陷阱，如果你一个不小心，又掉进欲望贪婪的坑洞里。那些在你最低潮时不离不弃的人千万不要忘记他们。

anyway，有梦的人最美，不对，有梦追梦的人最美。

很irony的，我的梦到底是什么？

most of the times I find that I am wasting time doing something that I don't like to do, but what's the point about doing something you like, cause life isn't about doing what you like, is about doing something beneficial or what or I don't know. one thing I am sure, doing something I like will make this whole ordeal more worth it I guess.

自由自在，嘿，悄悄告诉你我觉得现在是最好的时光。

那些在为些小事埋怨、偶而沮丧、快乐起来笑得屋顶都会掉下来、说起别人坏话又有点愧疚、那些跟自己度过的时光，和朋友度过的时光，你说，是不是过得太快，你想再快点。跳过那些繁琐功课，考试，你想快点到假期，假期时你又在唠叨怎么那么闷。我说人都爱犯贱。

对啊，现在是最好的时光。 没有完美，残缺是难免的，别人的闲言闲语一直以来都会有，该听的，我会听，那些只有破坏性的，何必在乎。

悄悄告诉你，这陌生的城市慢慢变得熟悉了。管它哪一天又出些什么状况让我招架不住，泪眼满眶，放心，坚强让我离掉眼泪的距离越来越远了。

' To simply try and be good and courageous and bold and to make a difference. Not change the world exactly, but the bit around you. Go out there with your passion and your electric typewriter and work hard at... something. Change life through art maybe. Cherish your friends, stay true to your principles, live passionately and fully and well. Experience new things. Love and be loved, if you ever get the chance.'

-One Day by David Nicholls

最近思绪很乱。

为了沉淀一下，重新整理自己的目标，人生方向，我 deactivate了面子书。

我需要重回那简单，容易感到满足快乐的自己。

听一首歌也可以感到快乐，醒来的早上喝杯咖啡读本书。

完成未完的功课，努力跟进大家的脚步，达到自己设的要求。

不再为无谓的事分心，厌烦。

我需要常常提醒自己是多么的幸运，拥有很多有些人没有的东西，感恩这一切我所拥有的，爱我的家人和朋友。不能奢求太多东西了。

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vIj42LYUOO4&list=LLY2Bktrut4FMdB2Fs4bmpcg&index=3&feature=plpp_video

there's a phrase that I like so much.

'But I love being subemerged in your contradictions dear'